sunday!
SUNDAY! the day i like tht is until the next day, when i need to go back and face the horrors of school. but why i like sundays besides it being a day of rest?
i get to go to church! and see my frens, learn more impt lessons abt GOD and of course who can forget the babies in church.. haha
bt tis sunday was slightly different. nt tht the routine changed much. i just realise hw life can be funny at times. i was feeling happy and sad at the same time.
HAPPY! tht my sis has finally matured and realise tht sometimes u need to give up certain things in life so that you can get a move on.
SAD! or rather DISAPPOINTED! becos i heard so many sad things abt a CLOSE FRIEND in church. i dun wanna believe everythg pple tell me until i have seen and heard them for myself. i jus felt so DISAPPOINTED! and surely wad ppl say cant be all that wrong if they all see and experience it for themselves? i wonder if its true tt ppl change all the time even if i was drawn to this person becos of his ability to be True and Steadfast and Firm to himself. i was drawn to this person becos of who he realli is and wants to be. you could say i actually ADMIRE and RESPECT tis dude a whole lot. but to hear ppl (pple who are also v close to me) say tt tis guy has changed nt for the better but for the worst, i was so let down.
where is this friend who was so strong and steadfast?
it almost seems like they are toking abt someone else,
someone i dont know or recognise anymore.
disappointments arrive and i struggled within myself to believe tht wadever pple say abt him are lies but sadly i realise tt to my horror tht he truly has changed. hw can i forget the many incidents? aft all no one is perfect but to actually realise tht someone so strong like him can do a 180 deg turn jus like tt.. freaks and scares the crap outta me.
maybe i am wrong.. maybe he isnt as strong as i thot he was..
MAYBE I AM THE STRONGER ONE.
becos i am able to see his weaknesses and tell him abt them.
now that IS strength.
he will be in my thoughts and prayers.
i realli hope tht it is an honest mistake.
but....................
i highly doubt it....
i get to go to church! and see my frens, learn more impt lessons abt GOD and of course who can forget the babies in church.. haha
bt tis sunday was slightly different. nt tht the routine changed much. i just realise hw life can be funny at times. i was feeling happy and sad at the same time.
HAPPY! tht my sis has finally matured and realise tht sometimes u need to give up certain things in life so that you can get a move on.
SAD! or rather DISAPPOINTED! becos i heard so many sad things abt a CLOSE FRIEND in church. i dun wanna believe everythg pple tell me until i have seen and heard them for myself. i jus felt so DISAPPOINTED! and surely wad ppl say cant be all that wrong if they all see and experience it for themselves? i wonder if its true tt ppl change all the time even if i was drawn to this person becos of his ability to be True and Steadfast and Firm to himself. i was drawn to this person becos of who he realli is and wants to be. you could say i actually ADMIRE and RESPECT tis dude a whole lot. but to hear ppl (pple who are also v close to me) say tt tis guy has changed nt for the better but for the worst, i was so let down.
where is this friend who was so strong and steadfast?
it almost seems like they are toking abt someone else,
someone i dont know or recognise anymore.
disappointments arrive and i struggled within myself to believe tht wadever pple say abt him are lies but sadly i realise tt to my horror tht he truly has changed. hw can i forget the many incidents? aft all no one is perfect but to actually realise tht someone so strong like him can do a 180 deg turn jus like tt.. freaks and scares the crap outta me.
maybe i am wrong.. maybe he isnt as strong as i thot he was..
MAYBE I AM THE STRONGER ONE.
becos i am able to see his weaknesses and tell him abt them.
now that IS strength.
he will be in my thoughts and prayers.
i realli hope tht it is an honest mistake.
but....................
i highly doubt it....
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