jermie

I am empty. Like a vessel. Hence the noise.

i am so so sorry that i did not wash the dishes .... ............................................... ................................................ ............................................... ................................................. THAT I DIDN"T USE!

4 words - you're forgiven not forgotten. a point to note. i was pissed at you for sayin what you said but i cldnt stay mad at you for long i let go and i went back to being HAPPY . and thats why we could have a decent msn conversation. i could have bitten your head off but i decided to let go . wads the point? i would be guilty after that and u dun haf to live wid me i have to live wid myself. so u are surprise huh? well try getting to know me better and you will see that there is more than meets the eye what lies beneath? not even i know.. . . . sometimes my heart is biggger than me. too big for me. well i did ask God for a heart of love and tolerance and a long fuse and patience and listening ears but with that comes many heartaches and hurts broken hearts and tears . there is no other way of learning love i guess?

2 words - callous , dimissive. 1 word - ouch. 2 words - am i? 2 words - and u? 1 word - damn! 4 words - u made me mad! 4 words - maybe u are rite. 4 words - maybe u are not 1 word - argh! (if that is even a word)

Oreos and Chocs reminds me of you but Fast Cars and bikes remind me of u laughs and smiles remind me of you but talks and stars remind me of u TM and CS now hold special places in my heart but 'durian' and MS are special too playground and 3 evil creatures i remember but playground and 5 good frens i remember too Fish n co was fun but carl's junior rocked when you walk in, i spot you. when u walk in i see u. generous and kind, sweeT to a T. maybe i am blind, but i cant see no faults yet i am not dumb to think that everyone is perfect. i think i am a realist. an optimist. a pessimist. could everything just be a misunderstanding?

i think we are too far over the edge to step back. my nick on msn says - An evening of hope and tears. well i had a chat with my mum last night. and we thrashed out a whole of stuff or rather she thrashed out the stuff, i just sat and listen and spoke not a word. tho after hearing her out, it doesnt make me feel any b e t t e r. now i have a thousand and one questions that require a lot of thinking and some answers soon. i am burdened at this moment is an understatement. i am troubled too is an understatement as well. i think i am at a loss of words to what i am now. i think h _ m e is weird now. we are all s t r a n g e r s. its really the case of the left hand doesnt know what the right hand is doing actually i dont think that the left hand even knows that the right hand is missing just a while more, this f _ m i _ y, i have will no longer be whole. there will a huge gaping hole and no amount of tears and pleas will glue us back. we have gone too far away too near the edge to step ba...

THE BLUE JAZ CAFE silly me! i shld have a brought a camera when we went out. Mel and I . oh btw MEl, if i haven Thank you yet. THANK YOU! I Totally enjoyed myself that nite. The FOod was goOD . The Ambience was GREat . The Company was AWEsome . we should go out more often. and we should check out more hot spots . *i am not just refering to the food* hehe and no weird guys in purple shirts allowed. anyway, as usual, when we met, its almost like we connected all the time, gal, u are one of my few frens, whom i can just talk to, without missing a beat, doesnt matter if we haven met in 10 thousand years, we can still connect just like that, I thank GOD for special frens like you. i was just so amazed , at the many things we haf/had in common, for every story/episode/incident/accident that i told, u told two , for every tear i shed, u shed two , for every laugh that flowed out of me, u laughed even more , for every time there was silence, i appreciated u even more , thankyou . knowing...

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