jermie

Woe is me, oh wretched sinner, i am. - just a thought that hit me this morning when i was walking to work. a heavy burdened heart, a very very guilty spirit. maybe min is rite, maybe its PMS which is a very lousy excuse. maybe its some 'affliction' that i must go through first before i can be stronger. i dun like to use the word affliction, its too strong, as compared to what Pastor has gone through, what is my affliction?hmm. nothing significant. really nothing at all. - when i left house, it started drizzling. and as i walked and talked with God, my steps became lighter. as i told Him, what was bothering me, i started to focus on the rain. while i was expecting BIG FAT raindrops to splash on my umbrella, they din. it was little snow droplets. i looked up across the field (Sign: that i am reaching work), it looked like it was snowing. (i have never seen snow before, but i imagine it would like look something like that) and i was strangely comforted (ok, not really strangely bu...

Happy Birthday JF! - a polariod photo. so pretty!  

i am waiting for the hole in the ground to open and swallow u whole. dont blame me if it really does. i am not apologising. or at least i wont and i am not talking either. Forget about being a testimony. just stop being a hypocrite. if all those sayings you always say will change my life then why hasnt it changed yours? what does that go to show that all those sayings are just sayings and what does that show again? that they dun work. so stop sprouting rubbish like that. even worse. sayings like oh, if you are a neat person, your life wont be a mess. sure. as if i am neat person then my life wont be a mess either. tell me, no WAIT, dont tell me! show me cos i am at the age where i dun buy rubbish like that anymore. so does that mean if i am a messy person then my life will always be messy. i will never forget what i say - sure, but internal messes are so different from external messes. so if i am a neat person then my life wont be a mess. i just need to get it out of my system. stay in...

the reasons 1. Growth in faith 2. Family - whats happening, what to say to who? 3. Age - the gap, the 5 years in the future thingy 4. The vet. 5. get to know better. 6. my point in waiting. MIn, did i misss anything out? i am stress tis is worse then a test. - not no, just wait - frankly and gently. - no bruising of ego. - be careful u mite exhibit your parents more than u realise. - be strong dont waver - jc mentality -its just not the right time i will blog more when i am less tired. need sleep.

Moo and Siao for dinner tonite time for some much needed talk and laughs i am sure it will be fun and interesting. anyway i came to another realisation yesterday. i realised that i have watched so many movies with you that i din know how to respond when someone asked me out for a movie the other day. i was so tempted to say no i will be catching it with you . haha but i realise you wont be around cos u are MIA-ing now. (No worries, i have a list in my head that i would like to catch and you can be my movie kaki, after you are done MIA-ing). so i said ok, why not? it would be fun rite? anyway, that person is funny and weird and just cracks me up all the time. and so i promised myself that if ever anything were to happen between you and me, i would still have my friends and you yours. the world can never revolve just around two people. it doesnt make sense. people who are so self absorbed will realise one day when it all ends, that the world is still spinning, time doesnt stop, wave...

Bossy said - Jermaine next time, find a guy 10 years older ME said - HUH!? so old ah. dont want. ME thought - why does everyone tell me the same things? does age really matters? Colleague laughs knowingly. (She knows stuff about me.) Bossy said - its good because he would be financially stable by then and will be able to look after you properly. dont have to worry about finances. he will have many many years experience. ME said - haha nah it is too old. imagine, when i am thirty, he is forty and when i am forty, he is fifty, and when i am fifty, he is sixty and when i am sixty, he might be dead. Me thought - for what would i need experience for? arent experiences better experienced when i experience them myself? Colleague laughs even more knowingly. ( i wonder why she kept laughing) Bossy asked: so are u looking for a boyfriend now? ME replied: yes and no. ME thought: i have too many, now dont know how to choose. oh and gals are mighty interested too. do i look lesbian to u? haha i tot...

Of Typhoons and Earthquakes what can i say? U blow me off my feet & U rock my world. haha

i am addicted to 1. cho col ates - milk, white and strangely learning to appreciate dark. 2. my handphone - keep thinking it will beep and vibrate. signaling an incoming sms... 3. ben and jerry - the two best people in the world 4. dark cinemas with comfy corner seats 5. long walks and sit downs - we walk where the feet lead and we sit where its dry 6. sound of waves crashing against the breakwaters - together with many silly questions asked 7. sight of dangling feet - from the breakwaters 8. laughs and silences 9. twinkling eyes and twinkling stars (or issit a satellite? i dunno could be a planet? where got planet so bright? why not? maybe its the starhub satellite? right, i am sure.) 10. tuxedos and cat suits - is lame-ness contagious? just wondering if your inference skills are working or did u leave them behind when u were away. testing testing. haha haha tis was jus for fun. i got bored.

hehe ok i am bacK! i knew i wouldnt be able to last three wks. muse or no muse. haha. anyway, i have according to my life analyser, too many things to think about. so one thing at a time. i shld do some reflections and think somemore. but beyond just thinking i am going to be praying a whole more. these are the things that is on my mind and in my heart. i will be praying abt them so much more. 1. My family soon it will no longer be whole. the split is coming. everyone seems eager that it will come. maybe like i said before, it might be a blessing in disguise. i am also tired of carrying everything by myself. i am very thankful for two special friends who ask the right qns and dont say anything when nothing is supposed to be said. pray for my mummy for strength to carry on. she is a brave woman and i am proud of her courage and strength. pray that God will be her pillar of strength and support and that i love her no matter what i say or dont say. and it hurts when she says i am like my ...

i am going to stop blogging for a while. seems like some people have no life of their own and so they need to read about other people's life. they wonder about this and that and they dont bother asking the blogger what does it all mean? instead they take those words and chew and munch and chew and they dont swallow because its they might get choked. oh i dunno or just some people think they are too good at infering so they just assume and presume a lot of things. which just makes me mad. my blog is a private yet public domain. darlings, if you dont understand or think you dont get what i am bloggging about. pls ask. dont think and chew and make silly assumptions. if i dont get to vent my anger here then where else. on u? i hope not. i seriously hope not oh i dunno but i prob wont blog for a while anyway. my darling muse flew away on a jet plane. this is bad, my muses are always leaving me. sigh. we'll see what happens after three weeks or so.. who knws i mite just be back with...

haha i am on cloud nine . been on it since sat evening dont think will be coming down from there anytime soon think the cloud rose a couple of stories last nite and took me along with it soon my feet will not longer be touching the ground Penguin i bet u are on cloud nine too the things u said of misses and a quick dinner of happy to see u of good company of future possibilities the things i said of silly grins of sweet dreams of misses when u are away of sorries and thank you-s I sure hope they arent just pretty words said to make my day. cos they sure did make my days and nites. :D at the same time, i am NOT asking anything of u or from you. its not fair of me . all i ask is that you take the one month away to spend time thinking and praying . pray about what's in ur heart and listen to what it says. hopefully it wont be a case of outta side, outta mind . i know it wouldnt be for me. for me would be the other silly saying - absence makes the heart fonder . i am doing s...

A night of clouds and stars of merlions of spits and vomits of electrifying electrico of could haves and what-ifs of seabreeze and landbreeze of laughs of almost tears of billy bombers of milkshakes of marilyn monroe-s and elvis-es of cab and funny drivers of old-fashioness of bags and concrete floors of marina sq and its many exits of hw wee found the rite one of u and me thank you.

hehe as u can see from the pics - we had an amazing time at Vani Aka The Angel 21st Birthday. at East Coast. what the photos did not show was the exhaustion on everybody's faces. to get to her BBQ pit, we had to trek for 1 and half hours. our plan was to be there early to help her to set up the BBQ stuff. we ended up callin for directions and reaching there at 730. just in time for dinner and an almost murder of the angel. evryone had ideas on how to get rid of the angel. some so evil that it will make ur hair stand but seeing that it was her birthday and that she turned 21 and everyone suddenly remembered that it wasnt nice to kill an angel so we were merciful and spared her life. she was truly sorry for all the calories burnt before meeting her, she piled us with so much food til we were quite sure we put back all those calories lost. hahah all in all, we had a great time and for anyone who is going to have something at East Coast. Make sure ur pit number is NOT 67 and beyond. co...

Sherry vs Jerm The Bizzare Shot - The Martians have landed!  

Our Self Expressions ||  

Take 21 - The Final Soar before everyone collapse to the ground Presents! The iDog was suppose to be moving The Angel and her iDog And more presents... Jenni has presents too!  

Jac and Lynette finally arrived Sherry, Jac, Lynette Jenni, Twins and Me! Take 1 Take 2 Take 3 - Check out the shadows! Take 4 - wirh a new member Take 5 - the angel having problems flying Take 10 - Shirlyn got whacked by the soaring angel @#$%! Take 14 - Jenni retires behind the camera and our angel flys without us! Take 15 - Lift Off! Take 16 - Our camera woman counted too fast ||  

Part 2: Er are we lost? Where is Vani's Birthday Party? The sign that made us laugh and almost cry Shirlyn to Sherry: silly vani, walking for the last 1 and a half hr still cant find her BBQ pit Hey gals, smile for the camera. No worries cant get lost in East Coast The sky got even Darker and we got hungrier Vani spotted running away from us in her trashbag dress Pretty Windmills A group shot before we killed the Angel END of Part 2. Part 3 coming up!  

Upon reaching East Coast This sign crack me up Er, two cats A ship out there Sandcastle Close up of sandcastle More sandcastles... ok we were at East Coast and i got carried away It turned dark, 1 and a half hours later Mich: oi vani, where is your BBQ pit? we cant seem to find it.  

I just got back from Hong Kong. IT was a blast! and i almost din want to come home. but due to lack of money and time and tempers were being blown. it was a good thing we were leaving. or maybe because we were leaving .haha. but on the whole it was a good trip. i mite have find my ultimate roomie. no actually i have had many room mates. but PIn has beeN the best so far. kudos to her. she just made rooming wid her so fun and easy. oh and you know something i was neat! for once i was neat. dunno why but whenever i am not home, i am neat. whenever i am home, i am not. haha maybe its just a different environment. or maybe i am rooming with someone else. oh well. i am still waiting for photos fRom JF. then i will try and upload as many as possible. the photos are so preety. cos i took some. cos i am in some. cos some of the compositions were my ideas. what to do, cant help it if i am just creative? i can almost hear a friend saying "oh no, her narcississ side is showing again" hah...