things to pray about
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ok i am bacK! i knew i wouldnt be able to last three wks. muse or no muse. haha.
anyway, i have according to my life analyser, too many things to think about. so one thing at a time. i shld do some reflections and think somemore. but beyond just thinking i am going to be praying a whole more.
these are the things that is on my mind and in my heart. i will be praying abt them so much more.
1. My family
soon it will no longer be whole. the split is coming. everyone seems eager that it will come. maybe like i said before, it might be a blessing in disguise. i am also tired of carrying everything by myself. i am very thankful for two special friends who ask the right qns and dont say anything when nothing is supposed to be said.
pray for my mummy for strength to carry on. she is a brave woman and i am proud of her courage and strength. pray that God will be her pillar of strength and support and that i love her no matter what i say or dont say. and it hurts when she says i am like my dad in more ways then one. strange, how we always say we would never be that person but somehow we end up the other way. strange
pray for my daddy that he will be able to shoulder it all and be a man when he is expected to be. that he knows i still love him even when i hate him. i dont hate him for what he has done, but i hate him for what he hasnt done. pray i will be forgiven.
pray for my sis that she will be able to handle herself and look after herself. that she will be happy and that she will know what she is looking for. pray that i will be forgiven when i say i understand when i sometimes dont. it is easier to say u understand then to say i dun. she is a strong person and i think strength is one thing that runs through this family. passed on from onr generations to another.
2. my job (or soon to be lack of)
My boss told me the other day that she has been thinking of closing PJ and that next month would be my last month. sad, the next month when i turn 21. seems like many things happen during significant years like when i was 16 and now when i am turning 21. haha. but God opens another door i guess. more about that another time.
3. a dear friend
this is complicated. i pray it will be uncomplicated soon. i pray for much courage to go through wid it. strange how i keep praying for courage when i am suppose to be courageous. strange. think i am a coward at heart. i am such a yellowed livered cowardly custard scurvy dawg. u savvy??
4. a special friend
will just leave it at that. nothing more to be said. think i said too much in my prev other blog entries. oh well..
Meow...
jerm
ok i am bacK! i knew i wouldnt be able to last three wks. muse or no muse. haha.
anyway, i have according to my life analyser, too many things to think about. so one thing at a time. i shld do some reflections and think somemore. but beyond just thinking i am going to be praying a whole more.
these are the things that is on my mind and in my heart. i will be praying abt them so much more.
1. My family
soon it will no longer be whole. the split is coming. everyone seems eager that it will come. maybe like i said before, it might be a blessing in disguise. i am also tired of carrying everything by myself. i am very thankful for two special friends who ask the right qns and dont say anything when nothing is supposed to be said.
pray for my mummy for strength to carry on. she is a brave woman and i am proud of her courage and strength. pray that God will be her pillar of strength and support and that i love her no matter what i say or dont say. and it hurts when she says i am like my dad in more ways then one. strange, how we always say we would never be that person but somehow we end up the other way. strange
pray for my daddy that he will be able to shoulder it all and be a man when he is expected to be. that he knows i still love him even when i hate him. i dont hate him for what he has done, but i hate him for what he hasnt done. pray i will be forgiven.
pray for my sis that she will be able to handle herself and look after herself. that she will be happy and that she will know what she is looking for. pray that i will be forgiven when i say i understand when i sometimes dont. it is easier to say u understand then to say i dun. she is a strong person and i think strength is one thing that runs through this family. passed on from onr generations to another.
2. my job (or soon to be lack of)
My boss told me the other day that she has been thinking of closing PJ and that next month would be my last month. sad, the next month when i turn 21. seems like many things happen during significant years like when i was 16 and now when i am turning 21. haha. but God opens another door i guess. more about that another time.
3. a dear friend
this is complicated. i pray it will be uncomplicated soon. i pray for much courage to go through wid it. strange how i keep praying for courage when i am suppose to be courageous. strange. think i am a coward at heart. i am such a yellowed livered cowardly custard scurvy dawg. u savvy??
4. a special friend
will just leave it at that. nothing more to be said. think i said too much in my prev other blog entries. oh well..
Meow...
jerm
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