I think I signed my life away
I din know that when i signed the contract, i signed my life away. now i am expected to not have a life. my personal life is over. my work life has just begun. i found that out recently and i wasnt happy about it. A certain individual stated quite clearly that its going to be rush week this coming week and i mite be working til quite late. which i am not worried about that.
well i just want to tell her that she may be a workaholic, cos she has to. she may be the one paying my salary cos i work for her. and she may be in charge of me cos well she is... but it is still my life. does it matter as long as i get the job done? it doesnt mean that the more time i spend in office means it will get done faster. it doesnt mean that. it doesnt mean that if i go home late and come to work early means that i am more hardworking..
It is still my life. my job is not my life. your job may be your life it has to be. it is your company after all. but it is not mine! it never is, never was and never will be.
I get it that sometimes working late and stayin back to complete tasks is part of the job. I get it! i have never complained about it. there are just so many incidents when i was about to knock off from work and leave, then you just come strolling out and gave me things to do. i have never complain and i have never said i cant do it or i wont do it. i always completed them before leaving, no matter how long it took. i had to forgo meetings with friends, bible study and everything else just to get the job done. i did them with no complains and no regrets becos it was all part of working life. i get it!
but just last fri, what cheesed me off was your horrible attitude. firstly it was rather urgent meeting, it was a last min one and my poor friend was already waiting for an hour. i really had to leave. there are only so much hours in a working day so there wasnt enough time to get things done. it was not you did not know. my phone kept ringing, smses kept coming in and i really needed to leave.
so i asked u for permission to leave and told you i will get it done first thing MON morning. immediately your attitude changed and u became damn cold and u started giving me a hard time. u kept saying that i jus had to get it done by mon (Not like i din know) and u kept insisting that there better not be any mistakes. then u reminded me that it will be rush wk this coming wk and that i shouldnt be thinking of going home early and that i might have to work late through the night.. blah blah. (not like i din realise that) i was irritated. .and annoyed with you.
after i left the office, i ran like the wind to meet the fren for the urgent meeting. then u called. u told me me that u found some mistakes and u have no idea how to rectify them. so i will HAVE to come in early on MON to correct them. which i have already agreed to do. then u jus put down the phone without giving me a chance to say another word. i hate it when ppl slam down the phone on me. i got pissed and annoyed. at the same time i felt quite lousy. idontexpecttobeappreciatedatleastnotbyu,
buttheleastyoucoulddowasjustbepolite.
youmightbeinchargeofme,
butthatdoesntgiveyoutheoptionofbeingruderight?
isthattoomuchtoask?
argh! i will end here. otherwise i will jus go on and on. and trust me this is the first time since i started work 6 months ago that i felt so annoyed with her/u. ARGH!
i told benT that i hate you. i think i will take that back cos i dont like using the word 'hate'. it is such a strong word. at this very moment, i dont like you very much now. and i never ever want to be like you.
well i just want to tell her that she may be a workaholic, cos she has to. she may be the one paying my salary cos i work for her. and she may be in charge of me cos well she is... but it is still my life. does it matter as long as i get the job done? it doesnt mean that the more time i spend in office means it will get done faster. it doesnt mean that. it doesnt mean that if i go home late and come to work early means that i am more hardworking..
It is still my life. my job is not my life. your job may be your life it has to be. it is your company after all. but it is not mine! it never is, never was and never will be.
I get it that sometimes working late and stayin back to complete tasks is part of the job. I get it! i have never complained about it. there are just so many incidents when i was about to knock off from work and leave, then you just come strolling out and gave me things to do. i have never complain and i have never said i cant do it or i wont do it. i always completed them before leaving, no matter how long it took. i had to forgo meetings with friends, bible study and everything else just to get the job done. i did them with no complains and no regrets becos it was all part of working life. i get it!
but just last fri, what cheesed me off was your horrible attitude. firstly it was rather urgent meeting, it was a last min one and my poor friend was already waiting for an hour. i really had to leave. there are only so much hours in a working day so there wasnt enough time to get things done. it was not you did not know. my phone kept ringing, smses kept coming in and i really needed to leave.
so i asked u for permission to leave and told you i will get it done first thing MON morning. immediately your attitude changed and u became damn cold and u started giving me a hard time. u kept saying that i jus had to get it done by mon (Not like i din know) and u kept insisting that there better not be any mistakes. then u reminded me that it will be rush wk this coming wk and that i shouldnt be thinking of going home early and that i might have to work late through the night.. blah blah. (not like i din realise that) i was irritated. .and annoyed with you.
after i left the office, i ran like the wind to meet the fren for the urgent meeting. then u called. u told me me that u found some mistakes and u have no idea how to rectify them. so i will HAVE to come in early on MON to correct them. which i have already agreed to do. then u jus put down the phone without giving me a chance to say another word. i hate it when ppl slam down the phone on me. i got pissed and annoyed. at the same time i felt quite lousy. idontexpecttobeappreciatedatleastnotbyu,
buttheleastyoucoulddowasjustbepolite.
youmightbeinchargeofme,
butthatdoesntgiveyoutheoptionofbeingruderight?
isthattoomuchtoask?
argh! i will end here. otherwise i will jus go on and on. and trust me this is the first time since i started work 6 months ago that i felt so annoyed with her/u. ARGH!
i told benT that i hate you. i think i will take that back cos i dont like using the word 'hate'. it is such a strong word. at this very moment, i dont like you very much now. and i never ever want to be like you.
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