jermie

Sometimes its the small things that matter The shortest conversation with someone The little note to someone The smallest expression on someone's face The solitary tear The shadow of a wink The smallest of a smile The light flick of the hair The gentlest touch of the hand The softest whisper The tiny little baby The tiny little town The tiny little dream ONE GREAT KING if the smallest things dont matter then... what about the big things? after all... dont the biggest of things begin with the smallest of things?

where are all my frens when i need them?? am i such a selfish person? when all i want them to be is happy. i nvr tot i wld get hurt by a frenship. bt i am hurt nw and maybe onli becos i care too much for them. maybe i shld stop. nah! its nt in my nature to not be a fren because i gt hurt by one. tts silly and tts nt me. maybe my mum is rite. abt me being a strong person. always getting up whenever i fall.. hmm ok.. maybe it will take a while bt i always get up in the end. .. .. . i nw understand hw impt frens are. they are your tower in times of need. i nvr realli understood hw someone can depend so much on their frens until they will even give up their lives for them. i am not that noble. i haf decided that i will still be a fren no matter what. no matter whether i got betrayed or whether they are mean to me. its just another level of frienship that's all. so if u nd a fren... i will try to be there (wanted to say always bt i cant la. i will be lying. cos i cant always be there. d...

its been a while hasnt it? school's been so busy and now... i think my wish is coming true. sch is ending in one wk time. wonder will i miss it? its been 3 yrs at Ngee Ann Polytechnic long yrs maybe? but... meaningful for sure... the friends i made, the lessons i learnt, the mistakes made and learnt. maybe i will miss school? but it is so unlike me to miss something like school. school... wads to miss about it? been wanting to get out of it since day 1. and now, the dream is fast approaching and yet, i stand and shiver what will the future hold? will i be able to survive? onli time will tell i guess.. thanks for all the memories!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! GONG XI FAI CAI! HONG BAO NA LAI! haha.. so it is that time of the year again. the wonderful hong bao collecting and feasting of the new year goodies. the food is great. the company is good too. what more can i ask for? er............................ MORE hong baos maybe? haha.

i cant believe it! i haf an idiot for a sis. she made me so pissed . you could say.. tht i lost it. i was yelling at her and you knw wad she said, "nw i am feeling happy ." i mean like.. wad the HECK! argh! she has no sense of logic. i wished sometimes i dun care for her maybe i care too much? maybe i shld stop? maybe i shld jus ignore her? maybe.... if i pretend she doesnt exist, maybe things would be better?

Nothing to report for today... jus the thot of blogging in school is terrible.. so ya.. just a note. .. nth new.. I HATE SCHOOL!

SUNDAY! the day i like tht is until the next day, when i need to go back and face the horrors of school. but why i like sundays besides it being a day of rest? i get to go to church! and see my frens, learn more impt lessons abt GOD and of course who can forget the babies in church.. haha bt tis sunday was slightly different. nt tht the routine changed much. i just realise hw life can be funny at times. i was feeling happy and sad at the same time. HAPPY! tht my sis has finally matured and realise tht sometimes u need to give up certain things in life so that you can get a move on. SAD! or rather DISAPPOINTED! becos i heard so many sad things abt a CLOSE FRIEND in church. i dun wanna believe everythg pple tell me until i have seen and heard them for myself. i jus felt so DISAPPOINTED! and surely wad ppl say cant be all that wrong if they all see and experience it for themselves? i wonder if its true tt ppl change all the time even if i was drawn to this person...