brother bother bothered both

this whole week has been
a week i never ever want to relive.

i am bothered about everything under the sun
work, school (future school), mum, dad, boss, people leaving
even Pastor's assignments which are suppose to bring much joy
bothers me.

sigh.
ask Juz, i snapped at everything and everyone within
a few metres radius from me.

i go to sleep grouchy
and
wake up grumpy

and i am not liking it

juz thinks it PMS
i think its crap.

i will get over it
soon
i hope

cos i am not liking myself very much now.

every morn while i walk to work
i would find something or someone to thank God for

but tis wk,
i just kept praying over and over
that i dont snap
or bite or yell
but its no use.
i still feel horrid.

one time i even question how am i suppose to be an example
to others when i cant even get my life in order.

interesting huh. i am not my usual self
i never knew i have a temper.
where did it come from?
i have no idea!

pray u dont meet me.
cos i bite...